Crazy full moon last night! I was feeling everything. Again, I'm so amazed by the realization that if I want to feel deep joy then I also need to make a space for the sadness, the heartache. I've tried to outrun that stuff for most of my life. Or I thought if I could find someone strong enough then they could do that work for me. It's no big surprise that partnership has been hard for me! I haven't been a true partner to myself. Stepping into a real relationship with myself, with fullness of my life, is as hard as it's precious. I don't know where it will go but I know I won't be repeating old patterns unconsciously any longer. That though brings immense relief, freedom and yeah, more of the fear stuff too... What patterns are you consciously stepping into or out of? What does it bring up for you?