Letter To Ethan from Thea

Letter for Ethan My amazing assistant Thea is an incredible writer.  She's also a single mama to her 11 year old son Ethan.  I asked her to write a letter to her son Ethan.  I wanted her to use the power of her words to share the rewards of being a mother.  She responded with this beautiful note.   Don't you think she should write more??  <3 --GO

***

Dearest Ethan,

I want to start by telling you that you are the most important thing in my life. Most parents I believe would agree because it’s true.

When you came into my life – that was when I felt the kind of love I never knew until then. It was the start of a bond that I know will never be broken and will be stronger as days, months and years go by.

From the day you were born, you have given me joy. And it’s funny because I see myself in you. You and I were born on the year of the monkey – in Chinese astrology, we are supposed to be “witty, intelligent, and have a magnetic personality.” And, “Personality traits, like mischievousness, curiosity, and cleverness, make them very naughty.” Lol. That probably explains why we can spend the whole day entertaining each other.

Our relationship, as imperfect as it may be, is satisfyingly perfect for me. I know in time I will miss our petty discussions over small things (that’s why I start one with you when I feel like it), our story time, our little dances inside the house, our night time routine, honestly, even how you would lay on top of me, pinning me like we were WWF wrestlers and of course feeling the warmth of your feet as they touch mine before I go to sleep.

You are 11 right now, still young but my heart breaks whenever I think about the moment when you won’t need much of my presence in your life, when you can do things on your own, when your day won’t start and end by hugging and kissing me.

While other people are afraid of losing their wealth and possessions – I fear “the” day when you are no longer dependent on me. Deep inside I know that I have to eventually accept that. I have to let you go and let you live your life. That again is the reason why even right now when you are still so young, as annoying as it may seem, I've asked you thousands of time if you will still have time for me when you’re all grown up. A little assurance and pinky swear will help take me off the emotional roller coaster, you know.

Fonz, you have taught me so many things about myself and life in general. You may not be aware of it but you have permanently changed me for the better – Thank you!

I will never, ever, ever get tired of being your Mama. I will never stop doing the things I have been doing for you since you were a baby. I may sidestep (a little bit) when I obviously have to… but I will be behind you, beside you, heck even in front of you whenever you need me. I will drop anything I’m doing in a second if you need me.

And always, always remember whatever you choose to do in life, know that I support you. The only thing I want for you is happiness. I love you, always and forever.

To end this letter I’m going to share this song, "For You I Will", my song for you…

I will cross the ocean for you I will go and bring you the moon I will be your hero your strength Anything you need I will be the sun in your sky I will light your way for all time Promise you, For you I will.

I will shield your heart from the rain I will let no harm come your way Oh these arms will be your shelter No these arms won't let you down, If there is a mountain to move I will move that mountain for you I'm here for you, I'm here forever I will be your fortress, tall and strong I'll keep you safe, I'll stand beside you, right or wrong.

Tight Hug,

Mama